Christmas Time

Christmas Time

OK, now lets be hones, its not that I am not religious, because I am. But somehow Christmas became for me just like every other day. I don’t know why, is it because I’m getting older, or is it because these days I’m croaching other roads of life. I don’t know I cant explain it, actually I can. Before there was that feeling, that feeling that Christmas is coming in a few days, feeling of joy but not today. Look at the calendar its 22.12. there are just 3 days to go, and I don’t feel a thing. The only thing I can think about these days is how to reach my goal and how can I improve myself, what is it that I need to change to improve myself, to become better. Is it maybe that a reason why I don’t feel it. Lets be honest the feeling is still within me, but its not activated, and somehow I’m not going to activate it, somehow I need to look in to the future, somehow I need to study, I need to develop my mind. There are so many things I need to change, so many things I need to do, how can I even think about Christmas time when there are so many undone things I need to do. I don’t know maybe some of you are feeling the same, or some of you feel'ed sometimes same and have a explanation for it. Everyone who does can freely contact me but I think its normal, I think when one starts to work on himself, and on his dreams one can never find a peace, not peace of the soul, because I have peace of the mind and of the soul, my mind and soul are living in harmony thats the reason I have inner peace, the most beautiful thing I ever discovered but is it really that the reason. Because I'm self-conscious, because I know that I need to change myself and that those changes are inevitable. There is that purpose, there are those dreams, there is that character, there is this soul inside of me and somehow I need to do it everything, somehow I need to seize all those days, somehow I need to use every opportunity I have because only I am capable to do it, with the help of the others or alone ? Thanks for reading !!