Being on Life’s Bottom

Being on Life’s Bottom

Did you ever been on such a dark place, that you thought that there is no way out ? I did ! It’s called the bottom of the life. Its a place of the absolute pain, its a place where I felt in one moment that my mind and my hearth are going to explode in same moment. The pain I felt is not possible to describe or I don’t know the words with which I can explain it. There was no possible way out and then in some moment I saw the spark of light. When you are in such life problems and you think that there is no way out, that there is only one possible way out and that is to take your life. But seeing that spark trough the cry I decided to follow it. I was always curious human being, somehow I stayed a child for my whole life, I never grow up. Walking trough that dark tunnel, where the only thing you can see is the hell and your problems, where your mind is simulating so many thoughts in one second, where you think that its not possible to take it anymore I found the exit. At the start the light was just a spark, but more I walked towards it, more the light become the brighter. And when I was there and after so much crying and after so much pain I decided to walk in, what could happen, I never felt so many pain in my whole life, I thought it can not be worse, and I walked through. When I found myself within, something changed, I can surely say that I become someone else. Strange feeling posses'ed me, something took my thoughts and gave me the control over my own thoughts, showed me the way how can I filter my thoughts, how trough the thoughts I can create my own reality. It gave me full control over my feelings, I can manipulate my feelings and if I wish I can be happy whole day and thats what I decided in those moments. And then come the other strange feeling upon me, the one I also never felt before and it was in my head. I felt how everything I know is compressed in one book, and it make free place for more knowledge. Its really strange feeling, its a feeling when you feel that your brain is making connections, when your synapses are connecting together and when you get clarity. And when that happened I also changed one more time. I take it as a gift, but what I see these days on people is not something I can describe, I see so many things and everything is crystal clear, its like I can read people just looking at them, its like I know what they are going to do or to say just looking at them. And then one more strange thing happened. Some strange Voice within me started to talk. I was never aware of that voice and what that voice is, but somehow I know that I need to follow that voice, but also in some situations I need to win against him. I know that everything happened for a reason and reason was that I somehow unconsciously always followed that voice. But these days I'm doing it consciously. He said that If I choose to follow him like I always did, hes going to do grate things with me. And now after all things happened to me, I am following that voice and it seams that everything is getting better, that my life is really beautiful, somehow trough the road that voice gave me a gift of my inner peace, showed me so many new things and make so many positive changes on me. Life is beautiful one more time and I dedicated my life to become life long follower. Somehow I know that, that voice only wishes whats best for me, that he wish that I am happy and prosperous human being. I don’t know how this story is going to end but the only thing I can say i that, I am living one more time, I love, I am happy, I am patient, I am persistent, I am disciplined, I became life long student, I am controlling my own thoughts, I am controlling my feelings, and I am controlling my self. Thanks for reading and God Bless you !!