Making Wish Come True

Making Wish Come True

Fighting for myself and for my life is the only thing that I'm willing to do until the rest of my life. I was a bad human being but mark the word bad. Its not important how bad I was, its important that I decided to change it. I'm fighting against myself every day, sometimes I win sometimes I loose but more I do it more I'm becoming better. I'm sure that the day will come when I'm going to be able to defeat against myself every time I decide. Its in those small steps, those small steps that are done every day to become better. From the day I spoke to myself the truth direct in my face I changed. I can honestly say it was until now the most painful experience I ever had but I'm fine with it. In those pain I found my true me, and if ever I need to do it again to find myself I will do it again. Those moments of pain are moments of my curing process, are moments of my clarity, of braking the chains of society. When the pain was over my mind, my soul was free after so many years. There is that voice deep down within me always speaking. Somehow I decided to follow that voice for the rest of my life. Never to go against him anymore. I know whats going to happen if I do it, and that is not what I wish in my life. That whisper from within made a miracle out of my life, he gave me my life purpose. The thing I wasn't aware that I need in my life. My soul is on fire one more time and I dedicated my life for self improvement but not only for me. Walking that road I'm willing to share my knowledge on those human beings that are ready to accept it. If I'm able to help to myself and I am, I am also able to help to the others. Its they  decision if they are going to try it or not, my decision is to help. Somehow I'm finding my fulfillment in helping to others. Its kinda funny but I was always the one who was ready to help to others even if that is going to hurt me. But not these days, maybe its seams selfish but these days I decided that I am on the first place. First I need to be happy so I can give my happiness to others. First I need to improve myself so I can improve others. I should be example. Its hard fight but I'm becoming better every day. Sadly but not for me, I noticed that people are not understanding what I'm trying to say, sometimes they even call me crazy but its not important after all is that not only they own opinion. But deciding to set myself on the first place, before the others is the way that I will go for the rest of my life. After all we are speaking about inner peace. After so many years of feeling hate within, the days have changed to feel happiness and love. And to always have it I need to do everything I wish to do. I need to do everything my hearth say to me that I need to do. Yes I know my hearth is sending me always somewhere where I need to win against myself but I am willing to do it, because I know every time I win against myself I'm becoming better, I'm growing. Mind is clean. Thoughts are under absolute control and the holy connection with my soul is the most important thing in my life. To maintain it I'm ready to go straight in to the hell to walk trough the nine circles of hell and get it again. I was already one time in hell i walked straight trough it just to find myself on the other side. If I need to do it one more time I'm willing to do it. After all I'm on these world send to live life on purpose and to make my wishes come true and not from others. Thanks for reading !!!