Releasing The Beast

Releasing The Beast

Yes my life makes no sense these days but I decided to think positive because I learned to control my thoughts. Because I know, what you think you are or you will become. After so many years living life of depression, after that day when I needed to decide am I going to kill myself or raise up and take everything I ever wanted. I decided for second option. Don’t try to go against me, because I`m aware of everything and focused like never before. My mind only sees one thing, the end, the peak, the ultimate goal. You cant stop me because it is already habit and you know what they say about habits, they are part of us. After defeating myself, after destroying myself so many years,after living the street life so many years you should not take me for granted, because the days have changed. These days I LOVE MYSELF MORE THEN ANYONE ELSE ON THIS PLANET. The human being I love more then me does not exist. Do you know how does it feel when you think that your hearth and your mind are going to explode at the same time, and you are ready to do everything just to release that pain. I was always sensible human being, thats the reason why I got so many times hurt'ed in my life. But do you know what is human being who is controlling his feelings, the one who is controlling hes thoughts. Its better that you never find out. I'm not afraid,  human being from i should have fear does not exist. No one hurt'ed me, on the contrary its me who hurt'ed himself. But I’m glad I did it. After so many years I brake the chains of society, and I will not allow myself limits. Why to, why is it hard to understand that limits do not exist. But its not important, I know what I need to do, my hearth knows the way, and I’m following my hearth. My whisper from within is the only thing that matters these days, I believed to everyone and what did I become in return, pain. Its funny how I decide to build my self confidence, ON PAIN. No one does have right to hurt me except myself. You don’t know, you don’t know what I've been trough. But its not important, even if need to be alone for the rest of my life, there is no going back, the moment I will pull back does not exist, even if I'm going to fall one more time I learned how to stand up. The only human being who is my best friend these days is myself. Yo can judge me, you can think about me everything you wish, but I hope you will never to live life I did. Even the results of my life absolute control of the mind and absolute control over ,y feelings, and absolute patience, you don’t wanna live in my skin. Yes I am following my hearth even if he is going to say me that I need to die, because I know that my hearth is never going to say me something like that, because I was already one time already there and in those moments my hearth actually introduced himself to myself after so many years. Yes inner peace is beautiful but you need to know that your inner peace is way of loneliness and almost no one on this planet doesn't have a courage to follow that voice deep down within, but I do. I’m dedicated to self-improvement, event if the path of self improvement is only possible to go if I need to go against my soul, just to get that improvement. You can judge me, you cant think anything what you wish about me, but after so many years I found my inner peace an there is no one so much important on this planet then my inner peace, even if I need to sacrifice everything that I have. I as a nice human being, wish you all the best in your life, and I hope you will never feel what I did have, because no one deserves it, except me. Thanks for reading !!!