The Other Side of The Coin

The Other Side of The Coin

Its funny how life can be beautiful. Its funny how one can be unstoppable, how one can set himself on the first place above everything. Its funny how one don’t allow himself stress even when others are trying to bring stress upon him. Its funny how for happiness it only takes a decision, a decision that you are going to be happy, no matter what is going on around you. From the day I shut'ed down my mind and form the day I take control over my thoughts I’m living wonderful life. I love myself. I love myself more then anyone else. That peace within me is so precious. No one and nothing is going to disturb it. Somehow after so many years I made again that deep connection within myself and I’m not going again myself anymore and I will not do it ever again. I still have fights I need to win, there are still so many peaks I need to conquer. But with my soul on my side, and with absolute self confidence somehow I’m sure that I’m going to do it. I changed so much, I cant even recognize myself when I look at myself in to the mirror. But I like what I see. I love looking on that marvelous guy and I even like talking with him, giving him words of support and even laugh with him. Past is there and its always going to be there, but past is nothing else then my own experiences. Past is not possible to define me because I don’t live in the past anymore. Taking the control over my mind I found my purpose. I set my soul on fire, I’m sharing the love and happiness from my hearth. These days, out from my mouth are only coming the words of truth. One could say that I become naive. But because of truth I am possible to see in the future. I’m living in the moment but I'm focused upon the future. Winning against myself somehow became my life task. Self improvement is only thing that I’m ready to seek whole my life. I never knew that my soul knows any answer on every question I ask. I never knew that my hearth is there to be followed, so I can have my inner peace. From the day I won against my depression, form the moment when I was on the crossroad of my life, from the day when I decided for the life upon death, something changed in me. In one moment my mind made so much connections that I noticed it, the feeling was there. The feeling of connecting informations with other informations. Connecting experiences with other experiences of the past. It was marvelous. After so many years living without life on purpose and so many years living without goal, I am ready to take everything that belongs to me, take everything what I wanted as a child. I don’t know why people don’t understand me these days. I don’t know why they cant see that life can be so easy. Is it because of wisdom I got when all those connections are made, is it because I noticed that my mind is very powerful weapon, which I used so many years against myself. Is it because I'm self conscious these days, I don’t allow myself any type of manipulation. Is it because my eyes are seeing more then they ever seen before. Is it because I started one more time to follow my hearth. Is it because my mind became all mighty computer capable to calculate every possible result. Is it because I’m noticing my thoughts, is it because I'm controlling my feelings. Is it because I somehow become aware of my feelings and I learned to use them. Is it because I’m choosing to live life without routine. Is it because I'm using my feelings to penetrate my subconscious mind. Is it because I know that every time when I succeed in penetrating my subconscious mind I'm on the way of improvement. Is it because I chose life without limits. I don’t know whats going on with me, but every day I see more, I get more new connections, I'm growing like a human being. I wasn't so before. I was weak. But these days with the knowledge I have, I am very dangerous human being. I got the knowledge from the streets because for more then ten years my life was street, it was fulfilling me. These days I'm seeking other type of knowledge. Its not even important about what type of knowledge I’m talking about, but I know that this type of knowledge every day opens even more my mind. I will not say that I’m afraid of what I could become, but EVERY THING, BUT SACRIFICE OF PRINCIPLE, FOR THE CAUSE, AND NOTHING FOR THE MEN EXCEPT AS INSTRUMENT OF THE CAUSE !! The world is beautiful place, and I will become everything I need to become to achieve my goals and my purpose. After all allowing to myself to be WHAT I REALLY AM I also need to allow others that they are what they decide to be. THANKS FOR READING !