What To Do

What To Do

I know my life is beautiful these days, but there are those problems, there are those fights I need to make with myself. There is only one way I should follow and thats the only way that is able to bring results. I already walked it and I think I need to do it one more time, just to become better, just to change myself one more time, just to improve myself. But the fight that one have against himself is always hard. I know that I need to be strong in those moments when the voice says that I should do that one thing and I should not do it. I'm not searching excuses because I’m honest with myself. I don’t even need excuses because I know that I’m capable to do it and I will do it and also I will make it. But just to say that we all have our fights we need to win, and I can understand everyone who's walking this road with me. Its always that way, its always those things that are going to make us better if we do it. I, personally somehow became addicted to those fights, I somehow try to do it on daily basis, its not working always but mostly because I was week. But that animal deep within me is going to be tamed, shes going to listen on me and on my decisions and not reverse. Because how can I believe to someone who is going against me, against my will and against things I wish to do. The beast is already tamed one can say but sometimes she finds a way to escape out of the cage, maybe I should find a better lock, maybe I should change and find a better cage. I will not allow it to destroy my life, but also I will not let it to be free until I can positively say that I believe that shes ready to go out and do what she thinks its right. I know deep within me that that the day will come but until that day is not here I need to be cruel with it, for my own sake, for my own better, for self improvement. I know that I fail a lot but I learned how to stand up, how to gather the energy when I come in the contact with mother earth and arise like a phoenix, better and stronger then before. Its not important what others are going to think or say, its important what I think, because only my own thoughts are able to make my own life as I wish it to be. There are those battles and I become a warrior of the light, the one that does not know a fear, that only knows a courage and the one that loves himself but not only himself also all other human beings.