There is Something Within Me

The Voice of Life

There is something within me, there is that voice within me who somehow always speaks, who always says what should I do. I do not know am I going crazy or I am just imaging it but somehow I know that I need to follow it. I know its not always easy, but more I’m doing it more I am better at it. I don’t know how much time following that voice I experienced pain, but what is a pain ? Is pain not nothing else then a feeling, a feeling most of us are not used to it ? And how can one get used to it, or is it even possible to get used to it ? I'm not sure, I can also say that I don’t know, because the only thing I know is that I know nothing, but I think, that if we experience to much pain the day will come when we will actually become used to it, when pain will become normal feeling for us. I'm aware that most of us are not ready to walk that road, but I am. I don’t know why, but for like 10 months ago I started to follow it. But why I started to follow it and how I become aware of that thing within me. Well trough the enormous pain. I don’t know did you ever experienced such amount of pain, so much that you thought that at same time your hearth and you mind are going to explode, but I did. And I because I was always sensible human being, because I was never afraid of my feelings, because I am a man and I was ready to cry when it becomes hard I discovered that voice. OK I will correct myself its not that I discovered it because that voice was always within me but I become aware of it. These days I know that sometimes I need to win against that voice just to improve myself, just to become better human beings. And how can I know what is it that I can improve on myself. Actually I ask myself a questions, what is it that I need to improve on myself to become better, and then I get the answer from that voice. Most of the times to improve yourself like already said you need to win against that voice, because all things at least I need to improve on myself until now are my addictions. I don’t know but from that day I changed for 180 degrees, these days I love myself, these days I'm acquanting myself, and more I'm doing it more I'm able to read other human beings. It was whole time in me, but I wasn't aware of it. Probably because in human nature is that we don’t respect what we already posses, instead we seek that what we cant have, one could say that its paradox. But I know to get everything I wish and everything I ever wanted I need to follow that voice no matter what. And after so many years living average life at last I am ready to do it.