Why I'm Doing THIS

Why I'm Doing THIS - LIFE PURPOSE

I know that most of you are not be able to understand it. Sometimes even I am not able to explain it. But the only thing I know, is that I need keep doing it no matter what. That I never need to quit, and even when it becomes hard that I need to push trough that pain because I know that I will prevail. Something happened, yes its true that I didn't believe in God. Its not because I wasn't sure of his existence, of hes creation but because I wasn't able to see. And how can one see when he can not see himself and when I write that one can not see himself then I'm thinking that one is not able to see his own mistakes, his own moves his doing unconsciously. These days I believe more then I ever did, maybe I did believe more as a child but then I didn't have experience I had these days, or even I did but my mind didn't recollect it in those moments. I know that I need to follow that voice, and even if I'm crazy I can only hope that that voice is going to make big things not for me but for all human beings, because they deserve it. I know that deep down when people look inside of themselves they can only find happiness and peace. Bad human being does not exist, all human beings are good. The difference is only that some of them are without self-consciousness and without self-control, thats everything. And when we then speak about good and bad or pious and impious then we can only say that they are people who are able to control themselves in every moment, no matter how brutal or cruel moment can be and then on the other side there are those who are not able to control themselves or at least not so long. But the truth is to get absolute control over yourself one should first become master over himself. That is the only field of life I am willing to walk and the only field of life where I deep down inside of myself know that I can become best on the planet. Thanks for reading !